Dreaming

if I'm dreaming, I like being asleep. If this is only a dream whose end is coming, I'm gonna taste it second to second, tear to tear, laugh to laugh, sweat to sweat. Right now it seems like this night is going to be very long and very hard, but all the things with this characteristics are the ones that last forever in one's heart and soul. I'm waiting for something big to happen, I guess I used to thing that it had already happen to me before, but maybe I was mistaken, maybe I confused it with something that promised to be very big, but resulted to be only a little piece of the huge amazing thing that's been reserved for me, for us. Peace is in my heart, mind and soul. Peace is my friend, my mate in lonely nights. I don't want to thing, or say or write wrong words, I want to write exactly what I feel, but it's difficult when anyone that will read this knows what I'm doing, or what I'm thinking or what I'm living, or what I'm suffering. Peace is sitting by my side, calmly, peaceful, patiently. She's the only one that gets the words exactly as I pronounce them, and I don't have to be afraid of spelling anythign wrong, since she gets the whole idea. The others get them in halves, and I don't complain, I can't complain, I'm very satisfied, I can't ask for more.

The night is passing by and the stars are as brighter as the beginning, nothing is bad, everything is how it should be, stars are in their place, wind blows in its direction, mosquitoes bite others arms, grass grows under my feet, everything is how it should be. Maybe it's cold for me right now, but it's the perfect weather for the grass and the trees and the mosquitoes, this time I have to endure it and think that if it's not good for me, it is good for many others. My heart is cold, but as I said, maybe other hearts are warm today, and maybe tomorrow is going to be the night that my heart will feel fire burning inside so intense that I won't be able to take it n_n!!! My heart is waiting patiently and is getting prepared for that time, expecting it to be perfect just like in the movies, just like in fairy tales, just like in novels, just like in my dreams...cause I believe in dreams, I am full of hope and trust and love, and I'm saving them all for later, just as in the banks,where you save money for a long time and when you take it out you discover that you have more than you put some years before.

In this eternal dream, my body is resting, my heart is waiting, my brain is learning, my soul is breathing...

But that I'm dreaming, doesn't mean that I'm not feeling or that I'm completely numb. I'm not numb, I'm not cold, I'm not dead. I'm dreaming and I feel, I love, I want to love, I need someone to give my love to. Just that. Who's going to be willing to devote to me? Would you? Would you be brave enough to take care of me while I'm sleeping? Would you?